I really want my own , how can it be acheived?

I am 25, male, how can I grow s? I've been drinking soy milk, will that help with the growth? I was even thinking of taking enhancement pills/cream/or gum. Plz help....Ok Im not trolling ok, I just want . Im obsessed with and want my own girly s. I took phytoestrogens and do mages, I for real want fem ...Ok and Im obsessed with the female beauty, I even would love fuller lips, soft skin, and longer hair, nice ***. See i had taken pills about a yr ago, and now I keep getting hot flashes, and my chest sometimes itches, and I like drinking soy milk. So can I really grow s like i want to?