I love this woman in everyway possible, we are not together now, but I'll wait?

We are very different, I myself cut off the relationship for self protection purposes, still we are still friends. Sometimes I can't respond in kind to her affections, or I'll be caught in a love triangle. Still I want to wait, but she doesn't or never has included me in any of her night life. Still, she usually treats me very special, uniquely at certain times. In fact she and I agree that I should move on. I will, I will try; however she is always on my mind, she has brought out something very gentle and genuine in me. I will wait, sometimes I see her walk across the apartment parking lot, she doesn't see me, but I watch, mostly to see that she is safe. I'm scared because I'm not enough for her. I'm very mad too, I know I shouldn't have those feelings. When I get to feeling mean, I will remember her and I'm consoled. The few times that we were together alone, like in my car driving, I want to touch her, but I don't. I wish I could. I've expressed my affection in words, actions, symbolic gestures. I think now that I might have smothered her, it's regretful. Can you see how I want to wait for fate to put us together? It's also unfair to me to devote my mind to an endeavor that could not have a positive outcome. Do you agree, am I flawed?